I'm really disappointed of my crush and life

[arkipunmx]

First of all thanks for invite me here,
How I said in title I fucking hate my crush because she barely replies my dms on x but she sometimes kinda talk dirty with other x user I don't evne know if that account is a woman or either man, but I wish I can kill That stupid account with rage, I can't even forget my crush because she mogs the fuck out of my ex crush irl, and she also is Asian more specifically Japanese like whenever I see her she turn me on somehow and also I felt proud she initially answered me my dm because I'm Mexican and Asian chicks have something with whites
But now I feel like I hate her,and she's hipergamous I'm very disappointed of everyone irl and online just for expection for some ppl
Somehow I feel so frustrated because I couldn't get a girl that atractive to reply my dms and she also was like playing w me, I fucking how some are like that and that's even more impressive because I'm not even attractive I'm ethnic, shorty but somehow Asian looking because I'm indigenous and also she kinda got my edgy humour sence and she was also kind and beautiful as fuck, I fucking hate that stupid x account, but at the same I hate her a bit

 

[chriswattsgamin]

brother leave your dignity above anything else man