Im Lowkey starting to don't care

Today I was really off and sad, everyone on my class probably knows it,but they wouldn't care because they are in their own business, and that's ok, but my point is that in starting to think more realistically than I've ever done before, I feel like everything I do will gonna fail eventually, don't matter, whenever I try love will be hurt somehow, also the idea of no having any talent or either a a long life motivation.
I don't have any particular talent at all and that make me feel so frustrated and angry, I hate a lot hate and sadnesses inside me that it's unbelievable I feel I'm not living the experience that everyone should be feeling ontheir 18s everything becomed so pointless that I don't enjoy things I used to do or enjoy now I just don't mind about everything anymore

ESL

Regarding having no talent, talent does not exist. It's a myth. Or to be precise, talent is just the outcome of autistic hard work. But most people are lazy fucks that just expect everything to fall on their lap, so they will never become good at anything.